Why do I feel guilty so much of the time. Guilty when I'm watching TV, when I'm doing one thing and should be doing something else. The new year brings such promise of new starts and new beginnings, but so many of us are still trying to climb out of holes of the past. The weight of our lives now and the weight of yesturdays burdens leave us barely able to be move at all.
I feel fat and lazy at the moment and I'm too tired to do anything about it, therefore feeling more lazy and more guilt. Like everyone else I had an over indulgent Christmas, a really lovely over indulgent Christmas though. I am just so tired and sluggish now and a little depressed. I've taken some time off work next week and intend to get some rest, relaxation and some perspective. Try to reconnect with my spiritual side i.e.God.
Anyway sorry that my first blog is a bit dark, but if I can't be honest here, then where can I be. I'm not this miserble normally, honest. The New Year always get me thinking about re-evaluating my life and trying to improve my life and my health etc.. I did give up smoking last year, so I can do it when I try. Not sure what this year's goals will be, possibly to be less hard on myself would help.
My Daughter
She loves to walk
2 comments:
Guilt - the things I do because I feel I should. It's such a powerful 'thing', You're right though - we can be very hard on ourself and it can keep us feeling pretty awful about what we think we ought to be doing, without taking in to account all the stuff we do do. Here's to being less hard on yourself this year.
hello,
i can completely relate to what your saying. it's a funny thing guilt i've found myself in the position before where i feel guilty for enjoying myself then at another time guilty for not!
i agree though, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself, try and think to yourself everybody's different and finds different things difficult.
enjoyed reading your blog and will look forward to the next post
purkul
x
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