Doing stupid things!

Ever do something then hate yourself for it even though if you were in the same situation you'd probably do the same thing again. It's not so much the thing itself, although I do feel guilty, it's more the questions it raises about why it happened and what it means. It's not even that I want it to happen again, but I know it could and that's scary. Sorry for being vague, just not sure who's going to be reading this, although now it sounds even more dodgy!

It's not that big a deal. Something happened that messed with my head a bit and now I'm feeling anxious and scared and guilty. Had a few panic attacks lately and am a little worried it might set one off although feeling ok at the moment.

Anyway apart from that life is swell! Just been a bit hectic lately. Still trying not to feel guilty about stuff, but not been easy. Also have been smoking quite a bit lately, so not been feeling that great about that. Until next time..